Pain & Love

Everyday you try to express urself to me. But for some reason it seems to get harder. I don't know why i'm putting myself through this. You have something about you that makes me feel weak.When we are together it could be heaven and then alson it could be hell. Why are we putting ourselves through all of this pain and heart ache.I know you been hurt in the past but so have i. It might of been a different kind of hurt. We express ourselves differently. I know you want to make things work. Everytime you express something your mood change and then go back to how you use to be. Why is that. Do you really think i would hurt you and cause you pain. I don't have time to play games or do something stupid.I don't know why we are holding onto these things, when were with each other. That's why we learn how to work through our pain and love each other. I got MAD love for u and are always in my heart.

Proud Bajan

Roses are red
Bajans are brown
thats my race
so don't put it down!!
My Bajan pride
I will not hide
My Bajan race
I will not disgrace
My Bajan blood
flows hot & true
My Bajan peeps
I will stand by you
thru thick & thin
till the day we die
Our Bajan flag
Always stands high
I yell this poem
Louder than all the rest.
cuz every 1 knows
BAJANS ARE THE BEST!!!
BAJAN Pride in my mind
BAJAN BLOOD is my kind
So step aside and let me through
Cuz its all about the BAJAN crew
Life sucks and then u die
but if your BAJAN
You die with good a$$ pride!!!!

Like Me

Why you hatin' on me, b-cuz you can't be me. How is ballin' like me, shinin' like me or ridin' like me, goin' to help you be me. Even if your man wants me, what's that gotta do with me. It ain't my fault that he wants me. Bitch, go and find out what i got that you don't. Ballin' like me, shinin like me or ridin' like me, won't me you me. So stop hatin' on me, if you don't got it what i got. you stupid bitch, go figure it out or ask your man. I flaunt it b-cuz i got it. Stop watching the clothes, shoes and jewerlly i wear. Tryin' to steal my style and the way i do my hair. Ballin' like me, shinin' like me or ridin' like me, won't make you me. Why you keep talkin like your shit is tight. Talkin like me, won't make you be me. Shit, you acting like we go back like popcorn. Actin like we were best freinds and big mistake happen. Bitch please we never jump rope at recces, nothing like that ever went down. Wanna steal mt SWAGGER b-cuz you ain't got one. Shit, you dumb bitch go get your own and stop watchin mine. Ballin' like me, shinin' like me or ridin' like me, won't make you me. Keep my fuckin' name out your damn mouth. Don't act like you the shit when i ain't around. Bitch get through your head you can't and won't BE ME.

Understand

I understand your feelings. I understand your fears. I understand your hurt. I understand your pain. I understand why this and why that. I understand what your going through. I understand what to do. I understand how to care. I understand your comments. I understand your sweet words. I understand your love. I understand, I understand & I understand. But do you understand me?

How Do you

How do you rise a gun to my head, click it and don't pull the trigger?

How do you break down my door and take my shit?

How do you do the things you do?

How do you act like you rule the world?

How do you live with yourself?

How do yo think that all these things you do will help you fix things. It is only making things worst and not making anything better.
How do you??

CRY

Stars and Sunlight don't bring a smile to my face anymore. I use to look up at them and smile, it was if you were doing the same. Now all i do is cry, like if it was raining outside. Eyes starts to fill with water. Tears begin to fall down my cheeks. They keep falling and can't stop. I look at the wall, wishing i could stop these tears from falling. I lay down and calm down, but i start up again. I look at the picture on the wall and i start crying all over again. I cry so much i just fall asleep. The weirdest thing is i wake up crying again. Eyes starts to fill with water. Tears begin to fall down my cheeks. I have no words to say, but I'M SORRY.

Losing You

I have been waiting for this for as long as i could remember. I was so happy when it came, couldn't believe it at first. I wanted this to last FOREVER. The something fucked up had to happen and ruin it. Just so they could get what they wanted, but it didn't fully work in their favor. The only thing that happened was that i lost you. Don't know why someone who would pull a gun on me more than once, would want to do that. No matter what i was doing you were always on my mind. Still until this day you are all i think of. I said it to myself that i would make sure that if you came back into my life, i would cherish it. I guess i didn't work my hardest to do that. Now that it's gone and does not look like its coming back. I don't want no one else. I will never love anyone else like i love you. This is so crazy how this all happened, why did it have to happen and end this way. I can't believe the turning of events that have taken place. This is so hard to deal with, i cry every day and every night trying to figure this out. I can be sitting on the bus, at work or just laying in my room all i do is cry. I try to hide it but no matter how i try, i have to cry. Every time i think of you chills run down my spine. i never thought i would feel this way about anyone and my i don't know my heart can take it any more. But i know i will always have this feeling for you. I love you and you will always have a place in my heart. I hope that we can work things out and go back to when things were good.